Ivy Tied Up |

But its riding on top of the fastest roller coaster thats ever been made..

If its not one thing its another. over and over and over and over again. you get the point right??

If its not he said she said its momma he touched me, looked at me, pinched me ect.

Then there is the wonderful oh so ever fucked up FIL. Who at this point in my life I couldnt care what happens to him. Yes i’m a mean, mean, mean, person. The man has made my life a living hell in the last 7 years and he is only getting worse. If it was at all possible i would move FAR FAR away from this man.. Living next door to him is bullshit. I need a padded room somewhere to scream and yell as loud as I want. he is so fucked in the head!!!!!!!!

Then there is a court battle to go to on monday for dh’s aunt. She is trying to gain custody of her 2 year old grand son who’s mother is beyond psycho. She has todl us all that because she has left “the hill” (where we live)that we are all going to start dropping dead like flies.. She claims she is marrying jesus in a real wedding.. (Davids bridal called the other day to confirm her wedding date and when she needs her dress she has ordered)… She relies on her “pastor” (who is a woman who is driving with a suspended license and has 2 theft warrants out for her right now and also has COMPLETE control over dh’s cousin.. she tells her what she can and cant do.. Dhs cousin does NOT make a move with otu her)for everything. They both have stated the 2 year old is the next supreme being. The ruler of the world. He is God’s son and was sent here to take over the world. They claim they need to perform an excersism on him to make him stop using the bathroom in his diaper, throwingup when he is sick and to get him away from the bottle (which yes he still takes once a day). That he has demons in him and b/c he is God’s chosen one he needs to have these things purged from his body. Can you imagine? It sounds like they are going to sacrifice him to God.. so this is what we are up against.. If the courts decide in his moms favor who knows what is going to happen to this child. His mom has never kept him by herself except for 1 night in his whole 2 years!!! Yes you read that right. ONE NIGHT.. She has never fed him a meal. She has only changed his diaper a couple of times. She cant even care for herself much less someone else. she cant make the decision on what kind of tooth paste to use.. much less when to change her sons diaper. She has missed his last 2 well visits b/c she claims god is going to take care of him.I remember when she was pregnant with him. When she found out it was a boy she said,”No it cant be! God told me I was having a girl with blonde hair and blue eyes and her name was to be jasmine” She wanted to abort him b/c he was a boy!!!!!God promised her a girl!She said God told her that he was killing her mother and she asked him not to and he said okay that he would spare her. Its unreal. The things this woman says. She told my 5 year old that my son was the devils child and had the devils blood running through his veins..

I just cant imagine how far she will go. I fear for her son..

Or atleast it was the first time I tried to post this.Seems it got lost in email land.

And Here I sit. Thinking and thinking and thinking and staring at my damn empty fish tank. Well it has rocks, water and 2 fake plants in it. its turned on and the light is on.. Just no fish. Seems like it matches my mood tonight. Full of crap but still empty.

I’m thinking of getting a job at night. Anything to get a lil extra cash to get my bills paid. Of course would have to discuss this with dear hubby (BLA) and im sure he is going to be against it. Even though it wouldn’t be any change for him. The kids would sleep at night while i was gone. i would even be here to put them to bed and take them to school. It wouldnt change the schedule i currently keep but still. I know the answer.. But my answer and his will be different im sure.

Now I talked to my mom today. Seems she is already having issues with my sister and her husband living with her. However my sister isnt even down here yet but her husband is.. It should be fun!

Now a thought to ponder……
WHY does something that is suppose to be so great hurt so much?

Hello and welcome to grouchland. Let me be your guide. Its 1 am and the only signs of life come from the glow of my fishtank and the candle lit on top of my desk. Well thats aside from my 2 year old who thinks its play time. And her exact words are ,” Play momma play” So she does just that. She is into everything from the kitchen to her bedroom. I’ve said no to her more times in the last 15 minutes than I can count. I of course wish to be in bed. So i can drift off to dreamland and live in a make believe reality. Waking up would be my trip to hell. As each night I find true happiness in my own lil warped messed up world. I’m not one of those people who cant tell real from fake or who cant stop lying long enough to tell the truth. Much less one of those people who believe the first thing they hear about everything. And even so they think what a friend says goes.

Until i sleep again
ivy

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

From Go-Quiz.com

Hmm lol.. i stopped smoking As a new years resolution. And I’ve done great so far!