Ivy Tied Up |

I know its well past m onday night. Its now tuesday morning but hubby is on nights so my schedule is all kinds of messed up and my kids are still up..

I know you hate waiting on secrets/confessions. And when I read guppy’s comment to my last post I had to laugh.. Sleeping to me isnt all that important..LOL Its something I do very little of.

Anyway.. Some of you might laugh at me, some might think,”She made us wait for this?” and some might think a few other things. However..

my secret is this..

I am 25, married and have my first crush. I’ve never had one before. Not a real one anyhow. Not even as a school girl. Its silly really. I dont find myself attracted to many people. Rarely do I find someone that turns my head, makes me stop in my tracks. Rarely do I find someone attractive because i’m easily turned off by behavior, lack of common sense, attitude, ect. But this guy.. He is cake..

To make matters worse. He is

I am 25, married and have my first crush. I’ve never had one before. Not a real one anyhow. Not even as a school girl. Its silly really. I dont find myself attracted to many people. Rarely do I find someone that turns my head, makes me stop in my tracks. Rarely do I find someone attractive because i’m easily turned off by behavior, lack of common sense, attitude, ect. But this guy.. He is cake..

This isnt one of those “the grass looks greener on the other side” deals. I don’t really know what it is. Its a crush. A stupid, silly, school girl, crush. To make matters worse he is hubby’s friend. They work together and he is always around now days. They even ride together.They’ve worked together for over a year b ut I just met him a few months back.

Never before have I ever had someone stuck in my head like this. I feel guilty for my infatuation. Even though I would never act on it or show it. But its still there. I haven’t been able to rid myself of it.
There is something about him that draws me in. He is smart, attractive and just yummy.

I find myself wishing he would just go away. With him around it makes it harder to get him out of my head. Mainly this is my guilt talking because I know I shouldnt be crushing on him. He smiles and everything around me stops. See, It would just be easier to get him out of my head if he wasnt around.

Now you know my silly lil secret/confession. I’ve only told one other person whom is one of my closest friends. She says that I shouldn’t feel guilty because 1) I havent done anything and 2) people have crushes.. its normal. But yet I feel guilty.. You ever heard that song by Reba McEntire song

[quote]
Only In My Mind

He said have you ever cheated on me
Has there been someone else
Is there someone you love more than me
Someone you can’t forget
If his memory is opened again
Let it be chased away by time
He said have you ever cheated on me
I said only in my mind[/quote]

Now.. Love has nothing to do with it..
But infatuation yes and now my own guilt.

So am I crazy?

A friend has sent me a confession she wants me to post tom.. She doesnt want to to reveal her name. However I dont think any of you would know her if I did but at her request it will be posted ANON. And I have another anon for Wed night however I dont know who sent it to me so it really is anon..LOL..
Good night all!
Ivy