Okay. So here’s the deal…
Posted by ivy | Under Ivy Unleashed Monday Jan 9, 2006I’ve got to lose weight. I know I blogged about this the other day. But see.. I’m one of these people that fail at what I normally set out to do. Maybe i’ve got it in my head that i’m going to fail so I set myself up to fail. Part of the problem in the past. I set my goals to high and then when I don’t achieve them i get flustered and stop. Or I get too tired with the kids , husband, house, mess, bla bla bla.. Its all excuses. It doesn’t matter anymore.
Truth is. I’m unhealthy and this is what matters. It DOES matter to me. It IS IMPORTANT to me.
I’ve let my husband and my family run me into the ground and i’ve let their lack of support get to me and i’ve in the end proven them right every time. I DON”T want to do this anymore. I seem to have no will power at all. I tend to push it to the back of my mind. But this killer voice in the back of my head keeps repeating.. YOUR GOING TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK AT 25!!! So i’ve got to do something..
So I’m going to start recording my journay in my blog. Why not? I put everything else here right? My weight issues are a very sensitive subject for me. I tend to ignore them and let them go so that I don’t have to deal with them.. I don’t think i’m alone in that though. My best friend told me that when you are REALLY ready and fed up you’ll do something about it.. It’s hard though. It’s so easy to keep on living like i’m living and ignore it.
BUT before you guys start thinking I just eat and eat and eat and eat and eat.. Thats not the case. I had thyriod problems before I had my oldest and after she was born. I put on a bunch of weight and since then its just kept getting worse with each pregnancy. I do not over eat. Hell I rarely do eat. My biggest problem is that I DONT eat. I will eat once a day. Which we all know isnt healthy. I don’t prefer junk food. I don’t like sweets. So whats the problem? I chase 3 kids all day every day. I should be stick then. Should be and are. Well its two very different things..
Anyhow. My goal for now is this:
To eat atleast 3 decent meals a day.
Drink atleast 4- 16.9 oz bottles of water a day.
Lose 10 lbs.
At first I put a deadline on that 10 lbs. But then I realized i’m setting myself up if I do that. That’s where i’ve failed before. Of co urse we can’t wait 6 months to lose 10 lbs but putting a deadline on the 10 lbs isnt goign to help me lose because when I fail.. I’ll be tempted to quit..
So what do I want from you guys with this post? I want you guys to kick my ass atleast once a week and ask how i’m doing. Help me hold myself accountable.. I’m looking for your support in this since I KNOW i won’t get it at home (VERY LONG STORY…)
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OH! And you guys know.. I failed hte last time I tried to stop smoking. But when I ended up in the ER on Jan 1st.. They told me if I even took one drag off a smoke I could end up back there because it’s going to make my ears bad again and all that jazz.. Now I don’t really believe one drag is going to put me back in the ER.. But I haven’t smoked since.. I realize its only been 8 days but still its 8 days!!
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and on a side note.. My previous post.. No I wont be answering those two questions here.. I’ve answered one of them on my blog before.. I’m just not gonna tell you what post or when..
I can certainly relate to struggling with weight…over the years.,.it’s been loose and gainand yo yo…And given health problems that should be a very good impetus to change one’s habits, but it isn’t always…Have you ever considered a support group of any kind? (If this is old news, forgive me..) A group of people who are trying to do what you are trying to do and understand the pitfalls can be extremly helpful…Just a thought, Ivy!
Much Much Good Luck with it!!!
Here from Michele tonight..OOOPS I mean, this morning! (lol)
Hi Ivy, the best book on the health/weight subject is The Schwartzbein Principle. I’ve had issues with complusive eating in the past and I’m convinced that my the Chronic Fatigue I contractred in my 20s was precipitated by starving myself. Starving leads to binging and then you’ll be out of control. Skipping meals is like trying to run a car without gas. Also, I read Adelle Davis’ books years ago. She cites studies that show that you can’t lose weight if you undereat because it shuts metablolism down. So it isn’t all about calories as we’ve been taught. Have you checked out Leanne’s weight loss site?
You can totally do it! Keep a food journal, that’s my advise.
whatever I can do to help, I’ll kick your ass if necessary! I put my resolutions about not going to fast food anymore and getting more exercise on my blog so I feel like I’ll be letting not just myself down but also my readers if I don’t keep those promises.
Good luck with your new healthy lifestyle! Just keep trying to stay motivated. I know, easier said than done! On Feb 1st I start the Liza Diet. I don’t really need to lose weight, I just need it to shift to different areas of my body lol! And I just need to eat healthier. I don’t really like junk food and sweets and I don’t eat a lot of food full of carbs in it to begin with, but I drink a lot of coffee and a lot of pop and I don’t drink enough water and I eat a lot of fatty foods. Time to stop that!
As for your other questions in the previous post, no sex with another woman but during one drunken moment a chick did kiss me. The end.
I wish you all the best, Ivy! I, too, struggle with my weight loss goals. It’s so hard to stay focused with daily life. I am frustrated because I eat right (under 1500 a day), don’t eat junk food, don’t over eat and exercise. However, does anything happen? I haven’t exercised in a while because I hurt my knee when I joined an exercise boot camp (does that tell you how desperate I am to jump start my metabolism?!) and have gained all my weight lost plus a few back. Once I worked out twice a day for a month and nothing happened. Thyroid fine.
I wish you the best of luck. I am trying to get my lbs. down before I get pregnant. We are trying right now and every month I kind of breathe a sigh of releif because it gives me a little more time to get healthy before I go through that journey.
You can do it! A key is to figure out why you fail. It sounds like you have a good idea. Part of my issue is that my mom was/is ALWAYS on a diet so my sister and I feel subconciously that dieting is something you don’t succeed at. Working on it.
Good luck! I know you can do it!!!!! Just remember, it is worth it in the end. I kick myself sometimes when I think where I’d be now if things worked out differently.
Sorry for the long post!!!! I’ll be here to support you.
Sounds like a good way to start, a little at a time, so that it seems realistic to achieve. YOu are absolutely right in that the fact that your’e not eating is impairing your ability to keep going, for your body is storing your weight. Same thing happens to my mom.