A little down..
Posted by ivy | Under Down and out Saturday Feb 11, 2006I’ve been a little down and everyone thinks I shouldn’t be. Lucky for me. They don’t control how I feel. I can’t help how I feel right now. I’m just down. I’m tired. I’m crabby. Did I mention tired?
Today would have been my brothers 10th birthday. God has it been that long since he passed? He was three when he passed away. I still can’t believe its been that long. And today the pain is still pretty raw. He passed away when I was due with my oldest. Every year my daughters birthday is a reminder that its been another year since he has been gone. Horrid thoughts. I still can’t believe how real the pain is..
The morning hasnt been a good one.. I was awoken at 5am to my son screaming my name and crying hysterically. I open my door and almost step in what was once the contents of his stomach.
My kids never make it to the bathroom. They always throw up in my door way. It never fails. It took us 45 minutes to get him calmed down. He slept from then until now (12:45). He walked into the living room. Said he was fine and then went to throwing up everywhere again. This time all over my couch. I’ve been scrubbing throw up all day. ICK!
Diva missed school friday. Because she had the same thing. So its been fun!
My morning sickness for the most part has changed from morning to afternoon. Which doesnt make getting up in the am so miserable anymore. but from about 3:30 till 9pm i’m pretty much sick.. I go to the dr on This wed. I doubt they can tell me anything other than i’m pregnant. I probably wont get into my OB until next month. I’m hoping this dr on wed can give me a refill on my inhaler. My asthma is really giving me a problem these last 2 weeks. good thing I stopped smoking over a month ago.
I think i just need a nap.. LOL.. I’ll get around to visiting you guys soon! As soon as these kids are feeling better.. Thank you for the emails and all the well wishes!
Gee, I wonder why you’re not feeling exceptionally chipper.
Feeling aren’t right or wrong…they just are.
You’re pregnant!!
I can feel by your writing how very raw your brothers death is to you. My dad died in 93, but he was older & so it was sort of expected. My heart hurts for you & missing your little brother.
I hope your kids get to feeling better sooner. If it’s any consolation, theirs is the only throw up you’ll EVER be able to clean up w/o throwing up yourself. At least that was the case with me.
~ take it easy, Ivy
Yikes girlie …I hope all gets back to normal around there soon …
It’s ok to be blue! It’s a normal part of pregnancy - moods!!!
I”m so glad you didn’t step in the barf. That would have made it so much worse. But then again, you still had to clean it up. I hope you dont’ get it.
I hope you and your family are feeling better. Take care of yourself…
=[ Don’t know what to say about your little brother, but it’s sad
I hope your kids feel better soon!! that’s so sucky that they’re sick when you don’t feel your best either. Hang in there!!
Yeah, don’t let anyone try and tell you how to feel about anything. Nobody but you is you!
How the hell do people get off telling you, that you shoud or should not be depressed!!?? You’re pregnant, raising kids, TIRED, and hormonal…. what’s not to figure out!??
Yep, sounds like you need some down time, even from the computer to relax and unwind.
Hope you and your kids get to feeling better soon. Congratulations! Everything will get better in the next trimester.
Take care.
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