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For now my blog has changed.. The normal urls still work.. But ive moved it for now to my pregnancy blog which is now going to serve as my main blog as well..

Did that make any sense at all???????????????

Its been a long night!

Not all of my blog roll has been moved over.. If you are missing from my blog roll PLEASE leave me acomment and i’ll add you asap..

So for my last entry that couldnt be replied to on my old blog.. scroll down.. Its below..

Well this last week has been extremely something..

I havent been sick or anything. Just really tired due to my Anemia.. My iron fell too low and Ive been extremely exhausted..More so than normal and extremely cold.. Its 90 something outside..Everyone else in the house is burning up and i have a jacket on..Not to mention..VERY VERY WEAK!!!!!!!! I could barely lift my arms this weekend i was so weak.. I’m back on the dreaded iron again.. So hopefully in a few days i wont be so weak.. This is something i’ve dealt with for a long time..

Last week my Air conditioner went out.. It was 95 outside and like 110 in my house.. It was soooooooooooooooooo nasty in here.. The kids were hot and miserable.. My family had some window units we could borrow but it only cools the living room and my bedroom.. We will need more if we cant get the a/c fixed soon..

I had a drs appt yesterday. The dr todl me he wont allow me to go to sleep for the c section. The risk to the baby are too high since this is a 4th c section and there is a lot of scar tissue.. I’m terrified..He knwos this. He was really understanding and concerned. He promised me it wouldnt happen again and i know that.. but it doesnt ease the fear.. He said they could make me loopy and i wouldnt care where i was at..LOL.. That might work..It MIGHT..
I start counseling this thursday.. We’ll see how it goes..

I had an ultrasound today.. The baby looks great! I’m measuring RIGHT on time for my due date.. And it looks great..

Found out too..

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And stubborn IS the word for it.. It took an hour to get him to show us what he was.He wouldnt be still.. Kept moving and kicking but when it kicked..He kept his legs together..He was constantly moving his hands.. VERY BUSY LIL ONE!

So his name will either be Aiden Matthew or Wyatt Avery.. Its now up to DH to decide between the two.. Although he told me it doesnt matter what he chooses because i’m going to do what i want to anyhow.. but thats not true.. I do want his input..IF he had any..He doesnt seem to have any.. Everyone keeps asking..Is dh happy its a b oy?

The answer.. is no. He doesnt mind one way or another what it is.. He just wants a healthy baby..Thats what we both want.. We NEED a healthy baby..

Also now our kids will be like this GIRL-Boy-Girl-Boy.. LOL 2 girls 2 boys.. My son is thrilled its a boy..When we told him..he said,”I knew that already”

Sugar however felt differently..she said,”Its a grl”

I told her it was not a girl that she was going to have a little brother..she said okay.. LOL

So we shall see… Things are going smoothly Now to just get my house fixed from the hurricane..still fighting contractors and finance company..

Stressing big time..

Over this crap.. WTF is up with my blog???????????

For some reason.. there are errors on my blog when trying to comment.. Hopefully this will be fixed soon..

Well this last week has been extremely something..

I havent been sick or anything. Just really tired due to my Anemia.. My iron fell too low and Ive been extremely exhausted..More so than normal and extremely cold.. Its 90 something outside..Everyone else in the house is burning up and i have a jacket on..Not to mention..VERY VERY WEAK!!!!!!!! I could barely lift my arms this weekend i was so weak.. I’m back on the dreaded iron again.. So hopefully in a few days i wont be so weak.. This is something i’ve dealt with for a long time..

Last week my Air conditioner went out.. It was 95 outside and like 110 in my house.. It was soooooooooooooooooo nasty in here.. The kids were hot and miserable.. My family had some window units we could borrow but it only cools the living room and my bedroom.. We will need more if we cant get the a/c fixed soon..

I had a drs appt yesterday. The dr todl me he wont allow me to go to sleep for the c section. The risk to the baby are too high since this is a 4th c section and there is a lot of scar tissue.. I’m terrified..He knwos this. He was really understanding and concerned. He promised me it wouldnt happen again and i know that.. but it doesnt ease the fear.. He said they could make me loopy and i wouldnt care where i was at..LOL.. That might work..It MIGHT..
I start counseling this thursday.. We’ll see how it goes..

I had an ultrasound today.. The baby looks great! I’m measuring RIGHT on time for my due date.. And it looks great..

Found out too..

[img]http://www.venusspeaks.com/ivytiedup/photos/data/media/3/Animation200.gif[/img]

And stubborn IS the word for it.. It took an hour to get him to show us what he was.He wouldnt be still.. Kept moving and kicking but when it kicked..He kept his legs together..He was constantly moving his hands.. VERY BUSY LIL ONE!

So his name will either be Aiden Matthew or Wyatt Avery.. Its now up to DH to decide between the two.. Although he told me it doesnt matter what he chooses because i’m going to do what i want to anyhow.. but thats not true.. I do want his input..IF he had any..He doesnt seem to have any.. Everyone keeps asking..Is dh happy its a b oy?

The answer.. is no. He doesnt mind one way or another what it is.. He just wants a healthy baby..Thats what we both want.. We NEED a healthy baby..

Also now our kids will be like this GIRL-Boy-Girl-Boy.. LOL 2 girls 2 boys.. My son is thrilled its a boy..When we told him..he said,”I knew that already”

Sugar however felt differently..she said,”Its a grl”

I told her it was not a girl that she was going to have a little brother..she said okay.. LOL

So we shall see… Things are going smoothly Now to just get my house fixed from the hurricane..still fighting contractors and finance company..

Has officially worn me out and it hasnt even began yet! Lets see.. Last night I had to go to the store late and leave the kids with hubby.. This is the first year this has really been an issue.. Because now the kids are old enough to know the big bunny did not bring the baskets if they see mom buying them at walmart.. This is also the first year that i’ve not put hte baskets together myself but paid for a basket that has already been put together.. BAD MOM!!!!!!!! I’m just worn out.. Plus we do very little candy anyhow.. I got baskets that had something small in it for each child and only 3/4 small packs of candy.. We do NOT do much candy..

Then I was on my wya home from a very crowded store and my cell rings.. Its dh telling me to get home NOW that he is very sick.. AND that he vomited all over the bathroom floor.. Now i’m sorry at this point he is sick but upset over coming home to vomit all over the floor.. Because.. Me.. When i’m sick.. Guess who cleans it up? Not dh.. ME.. Guess who cleans up the kids messes.. ME! Now I had to clean up dh’s too? I understand he is sick..But when its me.. Sick or not.. I still have to clean it up..

It took me forever to get home.. I had to stop at a lil store and get him some 7up and some meds.. By the time I had gotten home he did infact clean it up..And i’m so glad.. I was NOT looking forward to that.. He was mad that he had to clean it up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you imagine! Do I get mad when I have to clean it up? NO.. UPset.. yes.. Mad? NO.. Its part of being an adult. You dont have someone to clean up your messes at all time sick or not..

Anyhow.. He swore up and down he had food poisoning.. I swore up and down he had the virus going around and he’d be fine in 24 to 48 hours.. Now he wasnt buying this.. But needless to say.. Today.. He did have a fever (classic syptom of the virus going around) and the vomiting is over.. He feels better and his fever has broken..

But he is still going to stay home tom.. Instead of going to family functions.. Better safe than sorry when it comes to him.. And he has high potential to make everyone around him miserable if he doesnt feel well..

Tonight I dyed 50 eggs with the help of sugar.. She of course had to help.. Which meant dye spilled EVERYWHERE..LOL.. Thankfully I had put down a ton of newspaper.. My fingers are pretty shades of purple, pink, blue and green.. Its gonna take days to come off..

Every year I end up with multi colored hands..LOL This year though my shirt made it through with out dye on it.. I can’t wait till all this is over (the family functions) I’d prefer to stay home and have a small family thing with just my kids and dh.. instead of running all over as i’ve been super tired and dh’s family is never happy with the amount of time we can stay and I have to go to my family get together as well. Which this year is super important because my sister is having it at her house for the first time ever. Not only is this her first time to ever host Easter but also the first time to have any get together at her house.. And she is excited.. So its important that we be there and we be there on time. We often do not do the family thing on easter with my family.. So dh’s family gets us as long as they want us.. This year they are super ticked that we wont be there the whole day with them.. They will get over it right? I’m GOING to my sisters..they will get over it.. We spend EVERY holiday with them..

I hope everyone enjoys their weekend!

Has officially worn me out and it hasnt even began yet! Lets see.. Last night I had to go to the store late and leave the kids with hubby.. This is the first year this has really been an issue.. Because now the kids are old enough to know the big bunny did not bring the baskets if they see mom buying them at walmart.. This is also the first year that i’ve not put hte baskets together myself but paid for a basket that has already been put together.. BAD MOM!!!!!!!! I’m just worn out.. Plus we do very little candy anyhow.. I got baskets that had something small in it for each child and only 3/4 small packs of candy.. We do NOT do much candy..

Then I was on my wya home from a very crowded store and my cell rings.. Its dh telling me to get home NOW that he is very sick.. AND that he vomited all over the bathroom floor.. Now i’m sorry at this point he is sick but upset over coming home to vomit all over the floor.. Because.. Me.. When i’m sick.. Guess who cleans it up? Not dh.. ME.. Guess who cleans up the kids messes.. ME! Now I had to clean up dh’s too? I understand he is sick..But when its me.. Sick or not.. I still have to clean it up..

It took me forever to get home.. I had to stop at a lil store and get him some 7up and some meds.. By the time I had gotten home he did infact clean it up..And i’m so glad.. I was NOT looking forward to that.. He was mad that he had to clean it up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you imagine! Do I get mad when I have to clean it up? NO.. UPset.. yes.. Mad? NO.. Its part of being an adult. You dont have someone to clean up your messes at all time sick or not..

Anyhow.. He swore up and down he had food poisoning.. I swore up and down he had the virus going around and he’d be fine in 24 to 48 hours.. Now he wasnt buying this.. But needless to say.. Today.. He did have a fever (classic syptom of the virus going around) and the vomiting is over.. He feels better and his fever has broken..

But he is still going to stay home tom.. Instead of going to family functions.. Better safe than sorry when it comes to him.. And he has high potential to make everyone around him miserable if he doesnt feel well..

Tonight I dyed 50 eggs with the help of sugar.. She of course had to help.. Which meant dye spilled EVERYWHERE..LOL.. Thankfully I had put down a ton of newspaper.. My fingers are pretty shades of purple, pink, blue and green.. Its gonna take days to come off..

Every year I end up with multi colored hands..LOL This year though my shirt made it through with out dye on it.. I can’t wait till all this is over (the family functions) I’d prefer to stay home and have a small family thing with just my kids and dh.. instead of running all over as i’ve been super tired and dh’s family is never happy with the amount of time we can stay and I have to go to my family get together as well. Which this year is super important because my sister is having it at her house for the first time ever. Not only is this her first time to ever host Easter but also the first time to have any get together at her house.. And she is excited.. So its important that we be there and we be there on time. We often do not do the family thing on easter with my family.. So dh’s family gets us as long as they want us.. This year they are super ticked that we wont be there the whole day with them.. They will get over it right? I’m GOING to my sisters..they will get over it.. We spend EVERY holiday with them..

I hope everyone enjoys their weekend!

This pregnancy that is.. I’m so up in the air about how I feel and how I should feel and how others think I should feel and then how i feel physically ect. I feel bad on top of all of it for feeling like I do.. I feel bad for writing what i’m going to be writing in this post.. BUT right now.. I DONT WANT TO BE PREGNANT!!!!!!!!! I am not enjoying whats going on with my body. I’m not enjoying how I feel emmotionally on top of it all. AND I feel guilty for feeling like I do..

This sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The first trimester I was just tired. The second trimester. Which is suppose to be better than the first.. So far it totally sucks!!!!!!!!!! My face has broken out. And thats just a petty thing.. But the fever blisters have started.. That seems to be rampant part of pregnancy for me.. And its another petty thing.. Something that is just something that bugs me and thats about it.. These are petty little things that hold no meaning at all. BUT whats been bugging me.. Is I’ve been in major pain for the last 2 weeks.. Ive been majorly sick. I’ll spare you guys the details but its a part of pregnancy that some women just experience nad its not fun! I’ve never experienced it like this before and its extremely painful and its not fun and it makes me hate being pregnant..I’m not talking morning sickness. I’m talking real physical pain and its not mild. I’m talking pain that makes you shake and sweat. Then on top of it i’m told to stay off my feet, drink 2x more fluids than I have been, ect. I’m just OVER IT! The one thing.. Has caused another thing.. And this other thing.. Has caused another thing.. And its this rollercoaster thats getting worse instead of better..

Okay so the physical things.. They are real.. But they will go away I’m assuming.. And they do get better. They come and go.. But what doesnt come and go. What doesnt get better.. Its the Guilt.. I feel guilty for not wanting to be pregnant. So many women out there want babies. They try and they try and they try and they cant have them. My aunt for one. They live with the heart ache month after month. Then someone like me comes along. And ive got 3 kids already all of which were surprises.. And i’m pregnant again. And instead of enjoying it. I’m miserable and when it comes down to it.. I dont want to be pregnant.. The more pain i’m in the worse it gets. Then I feel bad for feeling like this and I feel guilty then I get scared. What if I lose the baby because I dont want it? What if .. What if… What if… How can I feel like this? What gives me the right to feel like this? I know I wont feel like this when the baby gets here.. Because I did feel like this with my last too.. But not this bad.. And not for these reasons.. Totally different reasons than now.. The reasons now are from the physical things my body is going through that I’m not sure its going to make it through.AND whats coming up in my next paragraph.. I have to tell you. The fear is much much much worse than the physical pain.. The fear.. is what is doing me in.. .

This Fear..It stems from what I went through with having my oldest.. If you have no idea what i’m talking about. you can read it here.. See this fear.. Is getting stronger.. Its not getting better at all. When I think about having this baby. All I can think about is what the c section is going to be like. i cant help with this irrational fear. I’m not even sure I can call it irrational. I’m terrified.. So much so that it makes it difficult to breathe when thinkinga bout it. It sinks to my stomach and turns and churns and makes me sick. Its pure TERROR!!!!!!!! And I’ve gone through this with the last 2 but this time its worse. Everyone says dont worry about it. You have plenty of time to worry about that. And they are right. I’ve got plenty of time to dwell on the upcoming surgery. Which will terrify me so badly when I go in for the surgery that they will have to do something to make sure that all is well. WHY does i thave to be like this? WHY cant I move past this? WHY cant I just feel comfortable. The fear is whats really getting to me and making me wish I wasnt pregnant.. I’m just so extremely terrified.. Yet part of me cant wait for my next appt..

I do not wish to offend anyone.. I needed to get this out because frankly..There is NO ONE around me who I can talk to about this and its eating me up inside…

I found this article Interesting..

Obesity Rates Among American Women Falling

While more and more children and adult males are becoming obese in the USA, rates for women seem to be falling. 33.2% of American women were obese in 2004, a slight drop from 33.4% in 2000. This is the first bit of encouraging news regarding the ever-increasing weight of Americans in general over the last twenty years.

Healthcare professionals in the USA say this offers a glimmer of hope. If women adopt healthier lifestyles, this could eventually be passed on to other members of the family.

Unfortunately, men and children are putting on the weight faster than women are losing it.

Why are women bucking the trend?

There could be many reasons. Here are some opinions we received from health care professionals and members of the public:

– Women tend to seek professional help more than men do (for health).

– Compliance is better among women (women are better at following instructions, either on a label, or from the people they went to see about a health problem).

– More literature aimed at women (women’s magazines) offer useful advice on weight management and general health, in comparison to literature aimed at men.

– Women have become better informed about health and nutrition than men (related to the previous point).

– This sudden slight drop in obesity levels among women could just be a blip.

– Women are more concerned about how they look than men are.

What do you think?