Excuse my hormonal vent
Posted by ivy | Under Ivy Unleashed Saturday May 20, 2006I’m not sure how much more I can take.. Right now i’m a wreck.. I’m ready to cry and scream and throw things and all that good stuff.. I’m so upset! And I’m just upset!
Why you ask?
Because my house is a wreck and I cant clean it. Silly huh? My house has completely been taken over by kids, hubby, and pregnancy woes.. Its gotten so bad i cant stand to look at it.. The kids are destroying faster than I can clean.. I cant keep up.. It hurts so bad for me to stand for very long.. My feet swelled while just washing dishes to the point of where i had to go sit down..
To add to it.. Th ehouse is still a wreck from hurricane rita.. And ive got 15 weeks to get it sorted and fixed.. 15 weeks!!!! I’m ready to cry.. i’m just goign to run away and be done with it.. No one is doing anything ot help and I cant do it myself.. I really cant.. I”m incapable now that i’m pregnant! Hubby is the worst.. i cant corner him to do a damn thing!
And to top it off.. He is out of town this weekend.. I’m here with the kids alone.. And I want him home! He hasnt called.. There isnt a phone where they are.. And no cell phone service.. And when he gets home.. he wont be any help still.. I NEED SOME HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im a nervous wreck because nothing is done.. i’m gettin gfurther and further behind.. I’m ready to crawl in bed and lay there and cry and stay put until i no longer have to look at this mess..
Yikes.
It really sounds like the walls are closing in. I don’ know what I’d do in that situation, except mainly accept that I can’t fix everything.
Sometimes we all need some down time as a chance to rebuild our heads. When I’m in a mess I sometimes edit out all but the worst and maybe do 2 or 3 things which make a superficial difference and just celebrate that improvement.
Here in England and thinking of you.
And Michele sent me.
rashbre
no excuse is needed for your ‘hormonal vent’. no need to explain or apologize.
try relaxing today. the chores will still be around, no need to attempt them today. do something for YOU. watch a movie you wanted to see, have a big old glass of iced tea, read a book, take a long hot bath. tackle what needs to be done BUT do it LATER
oh, michele sent me (and i LOVE the style of your blog)
hello,
consider yourself vented.
now maybe its time to soak in a hot tub.
AWWW I’m sorry. I so know how that feels. Just remember, your new baby doesn’t need a perfect house. When my fourth was born (and this seriously is no joke) we were living in a room built in a barn. I kid you not. All 6 of us in a teeny tiny room that had a toilet in it, a shower, and a sink. AND a washer and dryer. The rest of the room was lined with beds. Our queen, a toddler, and a set of bunk beds. It sucked big time. Luckily, we were finally able to find a home when babe was a month old.
But I do understand, and I am so very sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed! ((Hugs)) to you.
Girl,
I hope by the morning you have managed to find some calm, or just the ability to ignore the mess.
At the end of our lives, we are going to enjoy the little moments, not look back on the time that we were hard pressed to clean.
Chin up, tits and belly out,
Katie
ps. here from Michelles
awww, big hugs to you!!! i hope that you’ll be able to find some peace and be able to feel well enough to get your house picked up, even just a little bit. every little bit helps, right?
cry it out… just cry till you’ve cried your eyes out… then exhale. after that, just do one thing at a time. when it all becomes too much, don’t be afraid to ask for help… it’s always given.