Ivy Tied Up |

1. I can’t seem to decide on a hair color.. I have the urge to dye my hair often.. Like right now.. I”m itching to do it but wont.. I’ve processed it too much in the last month.. It MUST wait.. No doubt about it.. I think i’ll do blue chunks in it next time..

2. I like to cook.. Its the mess it causes I dont like.. I’m actually a pretty good cook.. I can do main dishes, side dishes, desserts.. Just don’t ask me to bake a birthday cake type cake.. I suck really bad at those.. I can make a killer apple cinnamon cake though!

3. I don’t have the best relationship with my 7 (soon to be year old daughter. She hates me.. No matter how hard I try.. She hates me.. My mom says she is just like me as a kid.. I dont remember being this hateful.. I’m trying my best.. I really am but i feel like im on a tight rope and there isnt a net below to catch me.. At the rate she is going.. She is going to be grounded for the rest of her life.. She does stupid stuff when she knows the consequences of her actions. Like last night. She was hanging on the bar to the shower curtain.. I told her before,”Don’t do that.. Its going to fall. See where its bent already. That is NOT made to be hanging on” What did she do? She did it anyway. I heard her in there talking to her sister telling her,”Shhh.. I didnt do anything, you are fine”..”Shh you are going to get me in trouble, I didnt do it” She is always trying to convince her little sister (4) not to tell on her.. That she didnt do anything wrong knowing full well what she was doing was not only silly, stupid, but also DANGEROUS! She does stuff just to do it.. And the rolling the eyes is on my very last nerve..

4. I hate the tv. i rarely watch it. I will sit down to watch a movie and maybe get through a 1/4 of it before I have to get up and do something. Wyatt has a bigger attention span than I when it comes to the TV..

5. I hate the telephone.. It will ring and ring and ring.. I wont answer.. Drives my sister and family up the walls.. I’ll answer my cell most of the time but only if i have to.. I call very few people. Those few are my good friends. I can’t stand it when someone calls me and sits there.. If you call me.. SAY SOMETHING.. YOU CALLED ME!

6. I prefer to sleep during the day.. That is when my insomnia is not at a new high and really do sleep. I dont know. SOmething about the night time.. It wasnt made for sleeping. yes I realize I’m ass backwards!

7. I have a very bad mouth when it comes to my language.. I’m not a bad mother but I do have a very bad mouth that needs tamed.. I admit I tend to use bad language in front of my kids but I am trying to curb that..

8. I think i’ve become unreliable.. well it really depends on what it is.. But lately I have become a bit unreliable. I told a friend i’d help her do something. But that meant hauling my 4 and her 4 kids around.. While helping her.. so far this week I havent been over there to help.. She hasnt called though.. But i pretty much bailed..

9. I dont like unreliable people

10. My biggest pet peeves are:
1.people who act stupid ( there are people out there who REALLY can not help how they are. The people who can.. Irritate the fuck out of me.. )
2. Belching at the table (loudly). Yes sometimes it cant be helped.. But people who do it because they can or just ignore the fact that they did it loudly and RUDELY and do NOT say excuse me.. GRRR!!!!!!!!!!
3. People on cell phones talking LOUDLY in public places.. ( you know like a restraunt, movie theatre, etc. Sorry.. If you have to talk louder because the person you are talking to cant hear you over the room or because you cant hear the person you are talking to.. or just because you are an arrogant loud asshole who thinks its okay to talk loudly on the cell phone in a restraunt.. Get some manners and walk your happy lil ass outside or to the bathroom to carry on your conversation. for 1. Its RUDE to the people you are with and 2. Its rude to the rest of the people in the establishment!)

11. I’m terrified of going back to school because i’m terrified that i’ll fail.. Part of it is being completely overwhelmed by the process just to start it..

12. I can’t take on much these days. I’m at a point right now where stress triggers me and I fall apart very easily. I long for the days where this didnt happen as often..

13. I want to work so bad. I crave adult interaction. Love my kids but I long for a job! A 9-5..
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