Medication Woes..
Posted by ivy | Under Ivy Unleashed Wednesday Aug 15, 2007If you can’t tell from my last post.. My new medicine is not my friend. My Dr put me on Geodon at my last apt.. It’s made my life miserable. First I couldn’t function. 1 pill put me out from Friday night till Sunday morning. When I woke up all I wanted to do was throw up. I wanted that crap out of my system. I wanted it out of me. I hated the way I felt. I couldn’t take it. Thankful it had been a Friday that I took it so that dh was home with the kids all weekend I refused to take it Sunday night. Scared I wouldn’t wake up till Tuesday. With dh needing to work that wasnt an option. I needed to function. So I didn’t take it for a few days then I called the Dr and explained the situation. They kept saying,”that happens it will go away in a few days. Usually 7-10 days.” I explained 7-10 days was not an option as a mother of 4 I have to be awake not wishing I were dead due to a medication.” And yes at that point on Sunday when I woke up.. I wished I were dead. I felt like I had been coming out of surgery.. It was anesthesia hell all over again! So they lowered my dosage and had me go pick up a smaller dose from their office.. Tried it.. No go.. I felt sick all the time.. My neck and shoulders were so stiff I couldn’t move. My neck is still stiff but getting better. I felt sick all the time. Lethargic too. Could not function. And I keep going back between moods really bad. Its like being on the edge of a cliff and you are fixing(In texas we say fixing in place of saying going to, just about, etc. Cant help it..) to fall off but cant get back onto stable ground and you cant fall into the depths of full blown mania either. Its a very bad horrible place to be and I don’t like it at all.
I’m extremely irritable. And I quit taking the med.. I don’t like it at all. I hate it.. I wont take it. I can not function like this and tend to my kids. The stress of school starting is also getting to me..
Things aren’t bad here.. I just can’t stand this medication and what it does to me. Its like a really bad high you just want off and cant get it out of your system.. It also makes me cry one minute and not the next and its almost like being pregnant again.. OYE! (but no I’m not pregnant) This is truly one of the worst things I’ve ever put into my body and I’ve put some bad shit in there over the years!
Oh Ivy! Stop taking Geoden, but it sounds like you already have! You are not having normal reactions to it. I take it, and yes, it knocks me out, but I take it when I go to bed, and at a dosage that is fine when I wake up. But it sounds like it doesn’t work that way for you.
You know what’s good for your body and what isn’t….trust your intuition and what your body is telling you!
I’m so sorry that you have such troubles with your meds. I think I might’ve told you that my Ex is bi-polar and I think he’s been on a different med about every six months, after he waits to see what the effects might be. It seems like he’s found “the one” lately but I can’t remember what the name of it is.