Addiction 2..
Posted by ivy | Under Ivy Unleashed Saturday Nov 3, 2007Addiction has started to take over my life. In more ways than one. The addicted person in my life is my husband. His dependence on pain meds has become an issue. Its controlling everything including me. My emotions are all over the place. I can’t stand to look at him when he is on the meds. My reaction to the way he acts when “on” the meds is bad. I get sick to my stomach and want to throw up. He makes me sick. He is a completely different person while on meds. I hate that person. He goes from clingy, needy, whinny, emotionally unstable to yelling and anger. He is worse than me and my moods (which are now stable). He has a real problem with his back and the MRI to prove it so they keep giving him meds.. Surely by now the drs realize he is addicted. How much of that is real pain vs what his mind is telling him?
I dont know how long I can go on like this. Its draining me. I’m depressed over it. I’m sick over it and I hate that person.
Anyhow. The dr said i’m stable and I can go back in 3 months. The abilify is working wonders for me.. Except now because of dh i’m falling into depression and i wonder if i should bother the dr with it. I doubt meds would help.. I dont know anymore..
I think i’ll go crawl in a hole and cry.
How interesting that the pain meds would make your husband angry instead of just “chilled out”. I never considered that. I hope he gets his back “fixed” soon and off those meds!
Abilify has done WONDERS for me, too! I now consider that one of my most important medications. It got me out of a horrible depression in like…48 hours!
What is the verdict on your husband’s back? Is it to be careful for the next year or so, is surgery suggested, or pain management, like he’s doing now?
Pain management. He refuses surgery. And yeah he goes from all those things to angry. Even more so if i say something about his addiction. we got into a fight about it last night.
Sorry to hear about this — with it being your hubby, it’s clearly not as simple as avoiding him or walking away, esp. since you guys have kids. I agree with teh comment earlier that people often won’t change until they hit rock bottom, but unfortunately, sometimes that won’t happen until they truly realize that they’re about to lose everything they hold dear. It sounds like he’s refusing to do anything about it, so I guess the other question is whether you’d be better off without him?